I can’t accurately express in words the feelings that I have inside. I feel like I am in a deep well. I am perpetually falling in a hole that is so deep and dark that I don’t know if there’s an end. It feels like I’m suspended mid air, but time is only moving more quickly forward. It’s an unusual feeling I have and it’s nothing I ever desire to feel on my own accord. This is worse than finally hitting the floor.
So I am laying in my bed. There are strings of thoughts that are old but frightening. Suddenly the world doesn’t make sense, because now I am a monster.